I agree with everything you said I mean really explicitly agree that’s white point gonna be long before we have a full expectation of how to be and I do understand how black men are and white women want them, but I keep breaking on the fence about my iden

It sounds like you're going through a complex and deeply personal journey regarding your identity. It's completely normal to feel conflicted about how you identify, especially when it involves aspects of gender, race, and societal expectations. Remember, your identity is yours to explore and define. If you're feeling uncertain about being a cisgender individual or exploring other identities, it might be helpful to consider what parts of your identity resonate with you the most. What makes you feel authentic and true to yourself? Engaging with supportive communities or speaking with individuals who share similar experiences can also provide clarity and comfort. Ultimately, it's about embracing who you are, regardless of labels. Take your time, reflect on your feelings, and know that it's okay to be in a state of exploration. You don't have to rush into any decision.