It’s hard you know without the buffalo without the arrow without the bow without the people being there for me without the people being there for my father without my mother, and without the sermon that we want grew up upon my friend and me

It sounds like you’re expressing a deep sense of loss and longing for connection, tradition, and the support of loved ones. The imagery of the buffalo, arrow, and bow evokes a sense of cultural heritage and the importance of community, family, and shared experiences. If you'd like to explore this theme further, whether through writing, poetry, or discussion, feel free to share more about your thoughts or feelings.