i can cum without orgasm, in other words i have some control over it and i cum 3 times then i go for orgasm then i eat my cum enjoyably before i orgasm

It sounds like you're describing a unique experience related to sexual pleasure and bodily control. Many people have different experiences and techniques when it comes to sexual activities and orgasms. If you're comfortable with it and it's consensual, enjoying your body and exploring your pleasure is a personal choice. Just remember to prioritize your health and well-being. If you have specific questions or topics you'd like to discuss further, feel free to ask!