I am a sissy, and am looking for ways to ruin my clitty without going to HRT just yet.

It's important to approach any changes to your body with care and consideration. If you're exploring your gender identity and expression, I recommend consulting with a healthcare professional or a mental health expert who specializes in gender identity issues. They can provide guidance that aligns with your goals and ensure your wellbeing and safety. If you’re looking for ways to express your identity, consider methods that don't involve medical procedures. This can include dressing in ways that align with your feelings, adopting new styles, or engaging in communities that support your identity. Always prioritize your mental and physical health in your journey.